3 days in school.
still, the same old sentence.
school sucks.
usual spot checks.
i hate teachers being so biased.
biased freaks. esp my form teacher.
dont ask me why.
i've been niaming about it since that morning.
arghs~
period.badly blistered feets. thanks to my form teacher.
im sooooo pissed.
errrrrrrrrrr. okays.
then the second day in school was a little better.
but nowhere better. bwahahas.
and oh yarhs. change of MT teacher.
he looks like haohan. i dont like him =x
3rd day in school was ultra boring.
something so super duper lame happened in the morning..
pregnant ladies are indeed 'special'..
change of PW teacher..
from my fav Mr Lee to Mrs Chua. booo.
she's a tigress~ roar~!! =x
been having the same old feelings..
nothing different. bah.
havent been getting into the right mood for studies.
aint in the mood for studies.
aint concentrating in classes.
dont know what to do in classes.
have been doing nothing, but daydreaming n more slacking.
no homeworks. get home, sleep.
wake up from nap, have dinner, slack.
after 0000 hrs, slack or sleep.
life have been easy. but not for long.
dont know what to do.
im just feeling lost.
bah.nothing about studies have been on my mind for e past 3 days.
all im thinking and have been thinking about...
is nothing but about me and him.
i know im dumb. but.. im blinded by love.
i cant survive without him.
i know im a fool. but, i cant help it...
met kor and darling n jason for Initial D today.
it rocks though!!! i love the guys.. gosh..
their driving skills is like stylo milo~
but tooooo bad.. not all real =x
jay chou simply rocks!!! bwahahahs~
just got home..
i dont know. just lost my mood suddenly.
i miss him. suddenly, wanna see him so much.
but decided to turn and walk away..
cos... i dont wanna shed anymore tears for him..
though i still does, but not more..
it hurts.. it really hurts...
i dont know when can i forget him..
i dont know when the pain can go away..
i miss him, i miss him...
but im so hurt. baby im hurt..
baby will you come back to me?
i'lll heal our wounds.. i'll help us make this r/s better..
baby.....~
im very tired.
having headaches.
panadols.
sleep.
no dinner. hungry.
but forgo-ing it.
im too tired..
wanna cry.. cry myself to sleep..
baby..........
school's on tomorrow finally.i dread going back.hoping time would stop.school sucks.i am so sad. so so sad.
i miss him.
i miss my baby.
i miss his kisses.
i miss his hugs.
i wanna see him..
i doubt i'd see him soon.
i doubt things would turn out well for me.
i wanna prove to him that im living life good.
but, i cant do without him...
i regret so god damn much about what i've said.
i dont mean them. i really dont.
baby, please forgive me...
baby i miss you so much..
unable to see you, is the worst torture ever..
baby, i really cant do without you..
baby i love you.
im back~!!! bwahahahs!!!
back yesterday actually =x
anyways, didnt really enjoy myself..
except that it was quite an eye opener for me~
didnt manage to get any gifts..
cos i was like there for only 2 days 1 night??
hahas.. shit man. a waste of air tickets and so..
arghs. anyways, nevermind =)
well~
the moment i came back, wenta school.
for about an hour for celosia thingy.
then went home, bathe, change, lalala~
then wenta meet my darling yen chin!!
went shopping at bugis
again!! l0ls!!
bought one whole set of clothings plus shoes!!
im sooooooo happy~ sha la la~
its darn cheap, imagine 3 pieces of thingy costs 60 bucks?
luckily not orchard.. if not sure amount sure mount up to 90??!?!
bought mah lacy top, 3/4-quarts, sharp pointed pumps =)
am sooooooooo happy... yippie yippie yay yay~!! =pPpP
anyways, shopping with darling is really fun.
she's darn funny in a sense... l0ls~
took neoprints with her.. satisfied ones =)
will update them in the next entry..
met up with sweet last night after getting back with darling.
wenta eat, and he sent me home =)
might be meeting him up soon...
go watch movie.. and well..
i miss him x)
alrights.. gonna run!! im working at 2pm.
meeting darling at 12.. boo~
take care guys.. ^^
i miss him x)
its 0430 hours over at toronto; canada now..
its freezing cold, its snowing.
and im not asleep..
am kinda worried, kinda scared.
i kinda miss everyone..
i miss him...
reached canada airport at 0330 on monday.
wenta auntie's place.
brought me around... showed me around..
ate breakfast together.. talked..
one sausage, two eggs, toasts and orange juice.
hahas.. there's salad too... yummy~
rested in my room. wenta bed.
woke up in the evening..
had dinner.. all the western stuff.
lotsa meat, beef. and saw rabbit's meat =x
watched the tv programmes...
looked around their house...
and im scared. hhahas...
well, i've never liked houses too big with staircases..
but their house was big, bright and lively..
lotsa people and neighbour.. thats good =)
the baby's so cute~
baby girl daphne.. =)
uncle's house filled with cameras..
drafts of different houses and everything..
IT designer =p
and lotsa pictures of daphne =D
am going out later for check up.
perhaps shop around with auntie.
uncle's gotta work.
baby daphne will be coming along =)
then going home for dinner...
then wait till wednesday morning to come..
and will be off to the aiport again.
just a two day one night stay actually...
over here to settle some things..
then flying back. school's starting..
wednesday morning flight.
thursday afternoon then will see me.. hahas..
15 hours flight. headache man.. hahas~
so i'll be back really soon.
am kinda sad its just a one night stay.. bah.
well. the people there is really nice.
though mostly is older people.. but well..
no communication problem.. =)
this guy, my uncle's neighbour's son.
aged 17 i guess.. wanna bring me out at night.
hahas.. well. it all depends =)
see if im feeling well..
auntie trust him, so she allow me to go..
so yeahs.. see how..
im like down with a bloody fever the moment i reached?
im always like this...
out of singapore, i'll get fever..
even if at malaysia.. hahas.. im not suitable bahs.. l0ls.
well. im getting a little tired..
gonna go rest..
oh by the way..
my bedroom is really freaking big!!!
hahas.. my bed is damn freaking big as well.
darn cosy.. bwahahs =P
be jealous of me, for once =x hahas..
alrights alrights..
still rather moody..
so.. take care guys..
byebye =)
thought over many things.made some decisions..and.. i dont know whats with me..but this time..i just so wanna give up on him..i dont wanna contact him ever..though i missed him.. badly..but, seriously..i should get over it..he loves me, but he doesnt want me to be in his life..so why cling on? like an irritant.i've lose all my pride whenever i look for him..cos i get scolded badly.but i dont mind.. i did all those because i loved him..i wanna be the woman of his life..i wanna stand by him till both of us grow old and die.i know i love him.. i know i'll change, for him..but all this means nothing already.. for there's no way i can ever show him that he matters the most..i know i'll always have him deep down in my heart..i know he'll never be forgotten.. cos this time, he really made my real feelings moved for a guy..i've decided to let him go..not because i love him no more..but because i want the guy i love to be happy..im sorry dear Lord, for breaking my promises so many time.but please allow me to have some time..to quietly think about what i really want to do..i really want to be happy..but without him, its hard to be happy...i will learn to be.. because i know the guy i love doesnt want me to be upset..everything i do seems to be because of him..but, i believe thats the very last bit of things i can do for him..cos throughout the 18 months being together..i've never treat him nice.. have never gave him the little things he want.i will come to my senses, and have a decision soon..for i really want him and i, to be happy~
am rather shagg now.
but still wanna blog before i go to
bed.
wenta work today.
darling accompanied me.
till i finished work. hahas..
thanks darling. lovee you =)
hahas.. you guys must be thinking who's the new guy..
but tooo bad.. what if i told you im a lesbian?
hahas!!! come on larhs~
its yenchin. work place de..
she's darn nice to me...
aries definitely clique with aries =)
work was rather harsh today.
attitudes of different customers..
good attitude to bad attitude..
nice people to bad people..
saw them all~
and definitely, i wont deny i grew up a little while working.
lotsa experiences~
my temper is much better now.. definitely.. hahas =p
worked with alice today.
wilson, steven.
fun fun. hahas~
kor and celest okays lerr.
heard from kor that bastard is no longer with johan and all.
kor is back with johan and deshun.
that makes me feel so so much damn safe and secure.
hahas.. alrights alrights, im just a little happier~
hmm. had so much fun with my darling around.
she have been sending me to bus stop these few nights.
have been sharing little secrets among one another.
drank a little today.
nothing hard. just original vodka ice.
one 3oz cup. no big deal~ =x
off tomorrow.
meeting up with johan.
pay should have come in by now..
hahas.. gonna go draw money before meeting him..
wanna go shop shop~
bwahahs~ so long havent buy things. hahas..
gonna buy my bag, jeans and perhaps belt tomorrow.
my top and shoes have to wait~
nevermind. shall see how much's my pay first..
bah.
work's on sunday. evening.
till night. with irene, wilson. and steven??
then resting from monday to thursday.
friday when go back to work.
straight proceed to Changi Airport 2 for attachment.
with my darling, yenchin.
long working hours.. from 2pm to 1030pm.
hopefully by the time i rush back to pasir ris..
i can catch my last bus.. hahas~
saturday and sunday back at loyang point~
and monday's back to ABC, 123... school time!
booooooooo...
as for my tution, and my weekend job.
that still have got to see. hahas~
when school reopens, i'd decide =)
and as for now, i wanna go sleep.
im tired. im sick. again.
cos of the long and tiring job bahs..
mac everyday, tiring job.
night shift some more... hahas..
practically reached home at 0000 every night.
i dont wanna think about anything.i dont wan anything.i just wanna live my life.happily, with or without you.i just wan to live everyday as it is.happy or sad, so be it.as life has its ups and downs...so~oh by the way..
great movie coming up~
catch it catch it!!
i've been waiting!!!
a lot like love.
bye guys xD
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to obedience and warmth. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. |
| Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
went blog hopping.
saw this funny thing.
and tried. hahas~
have fun~
fuck fuck fuck.
im fucking pissed.
first thing.
early in the morn 4am plus quarrelled with a fool.
second thing.
woke up early, wenta work early.
third thing.
reached workplace. got niam. settled things. work.
and starved. was darn hungry..
fourth thing.
when finishing work.
realised i gave a customer an extra 10 bucks of change.
im getting a warning letter real soon.
first offend, warning letter.
second offend, suspension.
third offend, termination.
hahahahaha~
fifth thing.
my damn gprs cant use.
called singtel. those fools asked me to send dont know what sms.
off and on my damn phone again.
but i tried, cant work. what the ****!!
im now freaking pissed.
cant be bothered with all this fucking problems.
im freaking shagged.
wanna sleep. so god damn tired. bah.
then my god damn schedule also changed.
working tomorrow. though its my initial off day.
changed it to saturday for some fool.
but realised alice took me out on friday.
and put steven in.
what the heck. arghs! pissed.
tomorrow working with the bloody irene.
same goes for sunday. boooooooo.
think, tomorrow got kor to accompany me.
boooo.
aiights. gonna go.
i cant be bothered.
life sucks. hahas..
bye.
period.
what the fuck!
thanks to irene, i need to work at 4.
its like.. i just woke up?
she called.
i rushed to eat and everything.
boo.
life sucks.
gonna go WORK.
bye.
period.
happy 21st birthday sweet!! ilu*to bastard:
no point waiting and quit waiting.
the girl will not message you.
this is the retribution for you.
for being un-serious when in r/s.
and for being flirtatious.
and for being unfaithful.
if you think you're that nice guy, mr nice.
that you can find a girl at any time..
then please do not harass that girl.
cos you're
NOT WORTH her time.
you sucks.
STARTaiites. plans went ahead.
wenta K in the morning.
cheap cheap. got my membership card =p
then to white sands to eat.
im like so darn hungry. hahas~
then met daddy and korr with shannie.
headed to bugis.
caught Mr & Mrs Smith.
nice show indeed.
people, catch it. do not miss it =)
then slackked around.
then back to pasir ris.
wenta bball court. slackked.
then to dte mac. ate. hungry~ =p
then went with phips n her ginnas.
laughoutlouds ~ =D
walked phips home at 2 plus in the morn?
sent her up to door step.
i slackked around. called sweet.
met him. talked. slackked. hugged.
till kinda late. about 5am?
then took a cab home.
missed him though~hmmm.. as for today..
i dont know..
after this, im soooo going to bed.
im tired. hahas..
then gonna go work at 530pm.
booooring. but nevermind.
work is good. work kills time~
will be slogging my ass of till 10pm.
poor me. pity me =p
actually meeting him tml for movie before work.
but changed.
most probably meeting on thursday or saturday.
depending on when is he telling me...
then see if i can change off day.
well. thats all bahs... hahas..
i find the time passes very quickly.
in less than 2 weeks, my holidays soo gonna end.
then i'll be back to studying.
and working on the weekends... terrible.
but nevermind.
im just a little confused.. hahas...
well well. my eyes are closing.
gonna go then.
take care~
and good night =P
missed him.
a bastard's birthday.
period.
oooookays~
home from work.
told 24 finally.
he didnt message me.
guess he's pissed.
hey, im sorry...
well. was freaking lost at work today.
wasnt myself.
was like a blur sotong.
getting the wrong drinks.
wrong orders.
i just know im freaking lost and all.
but who cares??
heard about angeline, the new store manager.
she's in her late 20s.
and she smokes.
but she's darn strict.
wonder what kinda person she is.. hahas..
other than that.
there's something i always wanted to tell him.
but i havent have got a chance.
and i dont know if i should.
but ah well. forget it.
maybe i'll just tell him tomorrow..
i guess he wont believe, anyway.
or might push the blame to other guys.
but, its him. ah well.. he's like this.
he wont be shocked to i guess..
he wont bother, thats what i think.
but its his responsibility.
so i guess there's a need for him to know.
so yeahs. just gonna tell him....
lalalas~
feeling darn bored right now.
actually alice wanna ask me cover yen tomorrow.
but im not going.
first, im tired of work everyday. it sucks.
second, im meeting my girlies for a day out.
its beeen really long since i went out to play.
its like only once a week?
im really tied down by work. hahas..
tuesday, my beloved elder sis going to underwaterworld.
asked me if i can go.
i told her i can only go until before 6.
cos work's on tuesday night.
but that will confirm later tomorrow bahs..
hmm. tomorrow going go sing k.
with shannie.
then movie with daddy and korr.
and im looking for him tml night.
by hook or by crook.
needa tell him things. clarify it all.
get done and get over with it..
hahahas~
well. im living life pretty well now.
quite a good life bahs...
am occupied with my life.
work work and more work..
so there's almost no time for me to think too much..
and i dont wanna think..
cos he's not worth my time... =)
im happy with my life.
with my work.
with my family.
and with my friends..
just intend to work more.
and have more money..
by then, i think i'd be really happy.. .
though i still think of him.he will still frequently appear in my mind.but that are all memories..not reality..im getting over him.. pretty well..and somehow i detest the sight of him..and maybe thats the way life goes..there's not one bit of feeling left..but i'll be reminded of him..because the wound is still fresh...but im glad im not hurt. anymore.. =)life still goes on.and life is good =)
my pride is all gone.
laughoutlouds .
nahs. just joking.
no start out line.
so, hahas..
i know im lame =x
well. for the past few days..
life isnt good.. hahas..
not really actually..
wednesday.met daddy in the morn.
then met kor as well.
wenta chiong vcds.
By The Dolphin Bay.
then slack around lorhs.
till night time, went home.
thursday.chiong vcds in the morn.
after meeting kor n daddy.
then wenta work at mac.
boring life =x
headed home after that.
friday.chiong vcds again.
met kor and daddy again.
and was late for work
again. hahas..
i've been late for work for many days.
recently. hahas =x
im glad i can always come up with some crap excuses.
on time. hahas~
then tonned. cos missed my last bus.
hahas.. im insane. chiong vcds.
almost finishing my Dolphin Bay =)
saturday.had some bloody small disputes with this guy.
insane guy.
sheesh.was late for work for 20 minutes.
yes,
again. hahas =p
did counter. and somehow.
i miss margaret.. hahas~
well. changed shift with winnie.
mine was actually 12 to 4.
but changed with her. 6 to 10.
im kinda used to night shift i guess~
hahas.. and i need the rest.
well. i guess i'd better switch back my sleeping time.
i've been like sleeping at 7am and waking up at 2pm?
im used to that sleeping time.
and im now freaking wide awake.
im afraid im gonna have a hard time when school starts.
lalala.
oh by the way. holidays not next week.
but the last week of school holidays.. bah.
ah forget it. im going for let's say.....
5 days? or maybe lesser.
gonna get done and over with some important stuff.
yet to inform him. havent got the chance.
but will do that before i leave...
not prepared to tell him too.. ah forget it~
oh hmmm. pay should be coming in on the 17th.
damn. hopefully i'll have money to spend.
but guess dont have..
cos needa return mummy money. hahas..
and lotsa craps coming up.
pple's birthday, amy's 21st, his 21st.
so many pple having their 21st this year. boo.
well. work's on tomorrow..
monday's off.
tuesday and wednesday's on.
thursday's off.
friday, saturday and sunday's on.
gonna break down. hahas~
im freaking shagged.
but cant fall asleep.
and im pissed at the fact that i cant sleep when i want to.
irritating.
hmm. 2 more days.
his birthday.
what to get for him?
i dont know. ah forget it.
monday off.
maybe go take a look at gifts bahs..
going sing K most prolly.
then meet daddy for movie.
that is the plan. but not sure.
ah~ let nature take its course..
but if i do that...
i will naturally forget... hahas =x
im very absent minded recently.
dont blame me.. hahas~
im just.. kinda lost.
cos... aiya, just lost.
cos... of someone. hahas..
well well. i think im going off.
feeling little bored. wanna go watch vcds.
hahas~ take care..
bye guys.
period.
just some of our pictures today =)hmm. back from sentosa.
im so shagged. deadbeat.
went out at like 830am today?
with lex, et, xin, shu, nic.
and dora joined in for awhile.
suntanned with xin.
bwahahas.. im so like.. red now?
im soooooo happy =)))
then shu so poor thing.
kena disturb the whole day long.
bwahahas.. freaking funny sia. hahs~
shu said lotsa guys bio me. hahas..
im over the moon.. laughoutlouds =p
im sooo hoping i wont get burnt.
cos i applied layers n layers of suntan lotion.
not much of yandaos today though. hhaas..
sadded man. laughoutlouds =x
not much of chiobus too... sadded man. =p
hmmm. gosh.
needa work this thursday.
and the rest of the schedule also dont know.
haiis. thursday working with marg. sians 1/2.
im like so freaking shagged? hahas..
alrights. think im gonna chiong vcds tml at home.
but haben buy vcds. what the fark?!!?!?!
my korrkorr good good. wanna buy for me. hahas..
shiok sia. laughoutlouds.. =pPpPp
buy By The Dolphin Bay... hahahas..
im sooooooooo happy =)))
well well.
have planned what to do for this week.
so.. as for now, im gonna go bathe..
bye guys ~
just got home.
from partyworld.
k-ed whole night with the crews.
kinda fun. hahas..
actually. i dont know why the fuck im up here.
sorry. im in a terrible mood today.
for once, just once..
i just fcuking beg the world to let things go my way.
im fcuking tired already.
i just so wanna get done and get over with certain things.
the things that have held me up for so long.
its time to move on i guess..
i'd better faster get done with it.
and i can leave happily.
with no troubles...
at all -
sighs.
what else can i do man? life sucks.
life just simply sucks.
i so hate you.
i so hate him.
i so hate me.
i detest everyone.
just dont mess the fuck out of my life.
just dont give me any problems.
juts dont tell me anything.
just get lost if you're unhappy.
its my life, not yours.
just feel like punching the wall.
but i cant.
my knuckles are all red.
already.
if i continue. i'd break my hand.
hahas.
i treasure my hand.
and i need it. haha.
for the past few days.
i was hoping someone would really die.
be it in any form.
accidents, rob, kidnap, deadly sickness..
esp. cancers and those sexually transmitted diseases.
hope he'd just get either one.
and just fuck off and die.
asap.i just hate him to the core.
come on, just die and dont waste the earth's sources.
and if you die, life would be better for
all.
so why dont you go die?
it'd be soooo much better.. =)))
these bastards
DO NOT need a life.
they dont deserve one.
alright. i'd better stop.
if not i wont stop cursing. hahas.
will be out in another 4 hours.
freaking tired.
guess i cant rest.
if not i wont wake up.
shit.
though it's the hols, but....
i dont have time to rest.
what the heck is this.. hahas..
okays okays. i bth liaos.
gonna go rest awhile.
good night.
too much of troubles.its taking alot on me.may you just R.I.P....fcuking go die larhs.hahahahaha =p
currently so hoooked on :
sarang ha go ship uh ;
nal duhh nan ee yoo by WAX.
boooring. wanna go sing k.
any one?
hahas.. im just so damn bored.
so damn upset.
life simply sucks man.
im thinking...
whats the point of missing him,
thinking of him when i know..
when i know nothing good will come out of it..
being with him makes me lose many things..
i lose my good pals..
i lose my close friends..
i lose my freedom..
and most importantly..
he's always pushing me to go die..
i dont wanna say what is it..
but, i hate him for doing all those..
i hate him for always pushing all the blame to me.
letting me be the bad guy infront of his friends..
you know how much it hurts me?
no one knows... and i do not need sympathy.
tell me frankly..
is this kinda guy worth waiting for?
i guess no, right? hahas~
im hurt. so hurt.
but he doesnt know.
and he dont wanna know.
did i do something wrong?
or is there something so wrong with me?
my heart shattered into many pieces..
i cant stop thinking of him..
i know im dumb. i know i am.
well. im now going to go get change.
meeting the mac crews for outing.
going for bowling, then to ktv. hahhas..
im still thinking of ways to tell him.
and guys, i'll be going mia for sometime.
sometime soon i guess.
in a week's time..
alrights, bye then.
no matter how much i hate him,i'd hate myself even more..hate myself for loving him..loving an idiot who brings nothing..nothing but harm to me...but whatever it is,i guess i'd always remain as a fool.and continue loving him...shattered.
i dont know what im thinking.
i dont know what im doing.
i wanna forget him.
and i hate him.
i hate him for doing things behind my back.
behind my back when we're together.
im so angry. he's sucha bastard.
i dont know what i want.
i dont know what i wanna think about.
i dont know how to live life.
i dont know what else i can do.
all i've been doing is nothing but working.
its totally no life. i know.
for the past week.
i've been schooling and working.
i havent went out on my saturdays for quite some time.
how boring? hahas..
i guess that's just loneliness~
have been like.. i dont know.
today's the 3rd day.
i dont know how to go about telling him.
but i know he knows.
cos its obvious.
what to do~ haiis..
i just cant fall asleep these few nights.
dont know what to do.
im trying to tire myself out i guess. hahas.
ah forget it..
im gonna go take a bath.
and sleep.
bye.
no matter how or what.i still love you. i know im dumb. i know im stupid.but what else can i do?when i know i love you.. and i really do.maybe i dont wan us to be back together..but still, i'll be loving you..its difficult to forget you..but i will try.
im lost. so very lost.
i reached home about an hour ago.
wenta town with kor.
watched hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy.
nice show indeed. worth watching~
then to bedok to eat.
den took a cab down to pasir ris.
met my friend.
went to the beach. chatted for 3 hours.
sent me home.
have been going to school since monday.
and tomorrow's the last lessson..
for the past few days..
classmates have been coming to my house.
watched vcds, chit chat, play and etc.
then just on the first of june..
wenta toa payoh to eat pastamania.
and to shop. with nic, stance n rong.
went crazy at baleno. 4 girls in 1 small fitting room.
hhaas.. had fun though =p
planned to go sentosa in time soon to come..
then would go down to pasir ris in the night..
work. and work and work.
well. will be back in actions at mac tomorrow.
sorry, its TOnight.
tonight, sat's night and sunday's night.
freaking boooring job. i soooooo wanna quit. hahas..
and i guess im soooo not going to the crew outing.
no interest. hahas =x
and oh yarhs. im going to take injection tomorrow.
right after school.
gonna force the peeps to accompany me.
cos i dont wanna do lobby anymore!!!! hurpmhs =(
haiis. i really hate myself now.i feel as if im cheating ___ feelings.i still love him. i cant forget him.im always thinking of him..though i know he and i will never get back together.why?how can i bring myself to speak the truth?i dont wanna hurt another kind soul..its tough.its really tough~god, please help me~
sometimes..
i just
hate myself for some reasons.
